It happened again

I’ve been writing about feeling bad a couple of times. Mainly because it helps me to better cope with it. Feeling bad can be the result of so many different things. For me it’s mostly social situations or basically anything involving other people that can make me feel bad or very uncomfortable. Sometimes it’s really bad. You can’t eat, you can’t sleep, you can’t talk. I’ve reached such a point again. »

This is Steps

In October of 2016 I met an amazing human being who had the simple - but not so often seen - idea to help people. Before flying down to Italy to attend my favorite iOS developer conference - #pragma conference - I was going through the list of speakers and stumbled upon Rikke. I started reading her blogposts where I came across her idea “Steps”. »Steps helps people overcome social anxieties with fun and progressive challenges. »

My fear of publishing

I started this blog because I have issues with posting things online that can be seen by others. I don’t exactly know what it is that makes it so hard for me to hit “Tweet” on Twitter, “Send“ in the mail app or “Share” in Instagram but there are different things that fly through my head when I reach this point. I start thinking about how others might react to it and that maybe it’s just not worth sharing at all and I’m just going to get laughed at or something. »

This was #PragmaConf16 for me

🔥🎉✏️🎨📱💻⌚📺🍕🍨🇮🇹 – tl;dr #Pragma Conference 2016 is over. Here is how I experienced it. There is really something about conferences that attracts me and always makes me wanna come back. And I think it's something totally human. It's the urge of being with other people who I have something in common with. It's about learning and self-improvement through communication. The first conference I ever attended was one in Germany back in 2013. »

About setbacks

I wasn't feeling very well in the past days. Almost four months ago I wrote about overcoming a crisis and how in the end it will all turn out good. However I also mentioned setbacks. At that time I thought I already knew what these where about. I thought it would be a really short amount of time in which you feel really bad but somehow also know that this would be over soon and you wouldn't even care that much. »

Signing GitHub Commits

This one is going to be a more technical post on how to sign commits. I will write a separate blog post about key signing and GPG in particular later. This guide is written for everyone. It doesn't matter if you have never used GPG before or you are the creator of it. Why sign commits at all? While git cryptographically is secure, you cannot be sure that work really comes from a specific person that claims to be the source of it. »

Your struggle is hard. I know.

Have you ever been in a situation where you felt just terrible, you were lost in bad thoughts and you were trying to compensate and making it all up by desperately trying to convince yourself that you are not struggling as bad as you think and telling the higher instance of yourself that bazillions of people on planet earth would be in a worse position than you? Well you possibly have experienced something like that in person and I would like you to stop thinking with this pattern. »

What’s going on at dub dub?

The World Wide Developers Conference. Probably the most attractive conference in the iOS, watchOS, macOS and tvOS community for years held annually in beautiful San Francisco. And that goes for me too. I have been wanting to attend for years already but never got a ticket. The demand for tickets is so strong, Apple had to start giving out tickets with a lottery system and about 5000 people were lucky and had the chance of buying a ticket for 1599$. »

Overcoming a crisis

It's something we all experience from time to time though we tend not to admit it. When I was a child my parents were somehow demonizing and making fun of it giving me the perspective everything would be perfect. And so reality gives you an even harder kick in your stomach when you yourself plunge into a deep crisis and realize that everything is not perfectly working out as you had always been told and expected it. »

Am I going to switch?

While seeking for an easy way to compose blog posts and also showing my portfolio I bumped into “Hugo”. I created my previous website with Adobe's Muse app. It's easy to learn and gives me a lot of different options to create my website. But I still feel it's too hard to deal with. I'm just not able to instantly publish my ideas as I always have to deal with formatting the text, moving around text boxes and other elements. »